Internet depression

Uplifting title for and uplifting post. This is my first post so here goes! So I’m sat here on a Thursday evening staring numbly at the screen after checking my phone every few seconds because I thought it flashed, it hadn’t.

I’m not normally this needy I promise. I’m so bored, and now I totally understand the connection of internet use and depression. Facebook is the worst, I have no reason to press home every few minutes, the only thing slowing down my obsessive ‘home button clicking’ is typing this, which is surprising therapeutic since I’m not a massive writer. I don’t give a shit if anyone even reads this, its just helping me keep sane at 21:29 Thursday the 9th of September 2010. Another string of sanity is ‘The streets’. Not much can lift my mood like mike skinner and his smooth and soothing garage back beats, lightly coated in his London accent and beautiful yet some what chavtasic appearance, utterly fabulous.

Today was my second day back at college since the 18th of June, that’s a mega amount of time, but I’ve had such an amazing summer it flew bye. The day started well, a 7am wake up call via deadmau5 and kaskade – move for me, after months of having this as my alarm song I’ve started to resent it, however I struggle to find a reason to change it as it reminds me of my friend, who I’m lucky to see a few times a year. Depressing.

But last time he was home, he drove me home at some ridiculous hour with my drunk friend rolling around the back seat begging to go to scammy dam (local dogging spot for those who don’t know) and we drove home after a night of vodka drinking in another friends apartment, and I just remember driving fast, smoking messily, and staring at the passing streets lights whilst the song blasted out, makes me feel really fussy inside, that was just a fun night and I miss him. So yeah, after that little detour in the day diary, after the alarm I then went on to get ready (surprising I know), wandered downstairs, French toast, Greek yoghurt with bananas and honey, hot chocolate and cigarette as I walked to the train station whilst pleasuring my ears with some happy drum and bass oozing from my ipod. Met matt in the station with Alice, after our morning train journey which was lit up with the black train conductor who always smiles excessively at us, its funny. Then to college where it was an average day, the highlight of day was a barburrtio, I obviously ate it and had to quote ‘this burrito is delicious , but it is filling’ but I had no dog to chuck at a biker, so I text jess informing her of my lunch time experience.

*note to self, must quote anchorman at every opportunity*. Nothing exciting happened after this, I came home, ummed and arred about visting the gym, decided against it and ate Thai food, which was delicious. Now sat her typing away feeling a whole lot happier, plus I just devoured a peach yoghurt, after all this food talk maybe I should just start a food blog instead, hmm maybe not.

Its not bed time yet, but I’m going to stop typing…..now.